I realized tonight that the entire first chapter is completely wrong and I have to rewrite it completely and that I am going to have to bust ass if I want to meet my self imposed deadline for finishing this novel/book/project/whatever. I also decided that I am going to start posting it serierally so I can motivate myself. I 'll post the link on here later.
It is becoming more and more clear to me, writing is what makes me feel alive.
ps. I might post in a few hours, I don't plan on sleeping tonight.