So consider me at one with nature. Props to Kay Elle for the photo. There was a big fire, and it was very warm and nice. Plus the back of my head is ridiculous!
So I have this friend/acquaintance that's going to college with me, and he wants to be a doctor so he's majoring in the bio med program. He told me yesterday that he writes music, so I asked him why he didn't just decide to major in music, and he replied with the obvious, which was that he wanted to be able to afford food and maybe a house. That night, he sent me a link to this song he wrote. I'm not going to lie, after I listened to it I was really impressed so I creeped a little bit and found his myspace music page. The kid is legit talented, he sings and composes mostly piano and acoustic pieces and they're actually good, which is rare for high school musicians on myspace. It's been bugging me for like twenty four hours now, and I think I just figured out why.
I'm pretty sure I've already subjected you guys to my rant on talent. For those of you who haven't heard, I really feel like people are born with innate talent in a specific area gifted from whatever you want to believe is or isn't up there, and that that talent is why we're here. We are all mediums for beauty in one way or another. It's always bothered me when people decide to do something for money. Before you choose a career, you should sit down and seriously ponder whether or not you would do the same job even if you didn't get payed, and if the answer is no, cross it off your freaking list because no amount of money is worth giving up what you really feel alive doing. I just couldn't imagine sitting down and being like, gee, writing doesn't pay very much. How about I be an engineer instead, even though I don't really care about it! I guess I don't put a lot of value on money. I mean I'd like to eat but I've pretty much accepted that I'm going to live in a small apartment and eat ramen for most of my life after college, and I'm okay with it. I just hope people know what they're getting themselves into when they decide to do something because it pays, because the world doesn't need any more miserable people. We've def got enough. If you can sing, by golly, sing! There's probably a reason that you can.
So I met who I think is going to be my roommate next year. Not a whole lot to say there, but she seems cool. I really love people who are open about things. There's nothing more refreshing than an acquaintance who treats you like an old friend.
Writing is sporadic. I have a plan, but I hope things come together more tangibly soon. I've taken a whole bunch of bits and pieces and finally ordered them up, which felt really good. More about that soon.
I'm really tired today and I'm not sure why. During second period, I looked down and realized that I had been wearing my shirt backwards for the entire day, and then I realized that the way the neckline on the shirt was, it made absolutely no difference. I'm really ready for college. I think I'm going to go take a nap/curl up under a snuggie and watch Law&Order reruns.
You are beautiful. LAHVE,
Loch.
That is a picture of some eyes. Sketchy? Yes. Classy? Def. Guess where. Just keep guessing.
Today has made me happy and all over the place. I sunk really low tonight and got a twitter, still not sure how I feel about that. I had a lot more to say an hour ago.
I wish people understood what it meant to be objective. I mean really, is it so hard to step back from everything for just a second? It's getting to the point of self centerdness. If you can't pull back from your own personal biases for a half second and look through someone else's eyes, then I don't know how you ever expect to get anything done. To be honest, if you want to weedle things into going your way, the first thing you're going to have to do is figure out how everyone thinks and minipulate that to work for you. Things are simple once you start looking at how other people are going to react.
So did anyone else know that firefox has like a built in spell check thing? and that it says that firefox is spelled wrong, every time I type it? Weird, but at least I'm spelling things right now, because apparently I wasn't before.
For those of you who were still wondering how my group did at solo and ensemble, because I know that's the first thing on everyone's minds, my quartet rated excellent. Which is good. Thanks for caring, if you did.
You know what's especially nice? I havn't ever really had any friends who write who I've talked to more than once a week until this year, and I think it's helping the character thing along. Also, if you're reading this and saying to yourself, gee, what about me? It's probably because I don't consider badly written poetry when I discuss writing. Because you know, you can tell yourself you have all the talent in the world, but that'll never mean you do. You either have it or you don't.
Which brings me to another point. I really wish people would start becoming more aware of what they are and aren't good at. I, for one, am more than aware of my flaws, which I do, indeed, have many of. In fact, I'm kind of fond of a lot of them, which is probably a flaw in itself. I know I'm talented in certain areas, and I don't care that I'm not talented in others. If your not good at something, stop doing it. Start doing something else. It's a really simple formula for success. If you are good at something, I see no reason why you should have any inhibitions about flaunting it.
You see, in my personal opinion, what seperates us from animals is that we are all born intrinsically talented. Some of us lose it, growing up, which leads us to believe that we aren't. Let me assure you, that is a lie. You have some kind of talent, something you were born to do, I promise. One day you are going to pick up an instrument or a paintbrush or a computer or a hacky sack and other people are going to stop and stare, and wish they could be more like you.
When you find out what you're supposed to be doing, trust me, you'll know. I really dislike it when people try forcing themselves into talent. When you start doing what you're good at, it'll come naturally. Please don't force it, because all you're doing is pissing people off, leading others on, and letting yourself get distracted from what you should be searching for. That's really all anyones doing is searching, and if they're not searching then they've found what they're looking for. It's not a difficult concept to stomach. If everyone would stop caring what other people thought for a little bit, the world would be a much more tolerable place to love in.
I just want to read and write and form sentences for the rest of my life. Words are all I can do with myself sometimes, and today was one of those days. Maybe I should write things I'm being graded for, now? I actually wrote down some character stuff today, instead of just thinking about it. I think I'm moving along nicely!
I hope everyone's day went well. I'll keep posting more often.
laave laave laave,
loch.
dear everyone,
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So consider me at one with nature. Props to Kay Elle for the photo. There was a big fire, and it was very warm and nice. Plus the back of my head is ridiculous!
