the classy know where they are.

That is a picture of some eyes. Sketchy? Yes. Classy? Def. Guess where. Just keep guessing.
Today has made me happy and all over the place. I sunk really low tonight and got a twitter, still not sure how I feel about that. I had a lot more to say an hour ago.
I wish people understood what it meant to be objective. I mean really, is it so hard to step back from everything for just a second? It's getting to the point of self centerdness. If you can't pull back from your own personal biases for a half second and look through someone else's eyes, then I don't know how you ever expect to get anything done. To be honest, if you want to weedle things into going your way, the first thing you're going to have to do is figure out how everyone thinks and minipulate that to work for you. Things are simple once you start looking at how other people are going to react.
So did anyone else know that firefox has like a built in spell check thing? and that it says that firefox is spelled wrong, every time I type it? Weird, but at least I'm spelling things right now, because apparently I wasn't before.
For those of you who were still wondering how my group did at solo and ensemble, because I know that's the first thing on everyone's minds, my quartet rated excellent. Which is good. Thanks for caring, if you did.
You know what's especially nice? I havn't ever really had any friends who write who I've talked to more than once a week until this year, and I think it's helping the character thing along. Also, if you're reading this and saying to yourself, gee, what about me? It's probably because I don't consider badly written poetry when I discuss writing. Because you know, you can tell yourself you have all the talent in the world, but that'll never mean you do. You either have it or you don't.
Which brings me to another point. I really wish people would start becoming more aware of what they are and aren't good at. I, for one, am more than aware of my flaws, which I do, indeed, have many of. In fact, I'm kind of fond of a lot of them, which is probably a flaw in itself. I know I'm talented in certain areas, and I don't care that I'm not talented in others. If your not good at something, stop doing it. Start doing something else. It's a really simple formula for success. If you are good at something, I see no reason why you should have any inhibitions about flaunting it.
You see, in my personal opinion, what seperates us from animals is that we are all born intrinsically talented. Some of us lose it, growing up, which leads us to believe that we aren't. Let me assure you, that is a lie. You have some kind of talent, something you were born to do, I promise. One day you are going to pick up an instrument or a paintbrush or a computer or a hacky sack and other people are going to stop and stare, and wish they could be more like you.
When you find out what you're supposed to be doing, trust me, you'll know. I really dislike it when people try forcing themselves into talent. When you start doing what you're good at, it'll come naturally. Please don't force it, because all you're doing is pissing people off, leading others on, and letting yourself get distracted from what you should be searching for. That's really all anyones doing is searching, and if they're not searching then they've found what they're looking for. It's not a difficult concept to stomach. If everyone would stop caring what other people thought for a little bit, the world would be a much more tolerable place to love in.
I just want to read and write and form sentences for the rest of my life. Words are all I can do with myself sometimes, and today was one of those days. Maybe I should write things I'm being graded for, now? I actually wrote down some character stuff today, instead of just thinking about it. I think I'm moving along nicely!
I hope everyone's day went well. I'll keep posting more often.
laave laave laave,
loch.

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not even the classiest call themselves perfect.

I know I haven't posted in a while, I'm sorry! I've been crazy busy. That's not a very good excuse, but it's what I've got. Things are going pretty interestingly, though!

First off on my list of news, I'm finally remembering to bring my punch card with me to escape, which is good because I've been there like ten freaking times since I got the punch card so I would already be sipping on my free pomegranate green tea with bubbles if my memory weren't so lacking. Just saying. I have five punches now, four more to go and I'm getting my hands on some free merchandise!

Secondly, and more importantly, the opportunity of a lifetime has arisen in my humble town! For me, I mean. Sorry if you were getting excited. Either way, I think I've mentioned once or twice that I'm Editor in Chief of my school newspaper. If I haven't, and there's a very real chance that I didn't, now you know. As you can probably figure out, I am very into journalism, alongside my passion for novelism. Novel writing? A novelistic career? There are just so many ways to say it.

Anyway, a major local newspaper is looking for interns. Guess who's applying. Just guess.

Also, if you could, remind me to study up on my Japanese. I don't think I've ranted yet on the vast amount of languages I want to learn before I turn twenty seven (I think there's about eight?), but Japanese and German are first on the list, mostly because they're the two countries I'm most interested in living in. I'm teaching myself, and last year I went on this kick where I studied for roughly two hours every night, but this year I've been lacking, and I didn't realize how much until very recently. I need to catch up with the rest of the Japanese learning community!

Writing is going well. I went through a bunch of old files on my laptop a few nights ago and realized that there's a pretty strong theme that runs through a few of them, so I'm starting to formulate a plot in my head and I've decided to recycle some older things. What I really need to focus on right now is character development, which I'm working on. I have a couple of people who I've gotten the basis for that I just need to meat out a little bit, and after that I'm brainstorming whoever I can, whenever I can.

I have a good feeling about this idea. I think it's been trying to get out of my head and onto paper for a while and I just havn't paid enough attention to notice. Somehow, I feel like this is going to take me somewhere.

That is a picture of some penguins, my favorite animals in the entire world. I took it, thank you very much, right after feeding time at the free zoo in St. Louis. There is nothing that makes me happier in life than a couple of well fed land locked birds swimming around contentedly. Not that the ones in the picture are swimming, but it was a good photo op.

I promise I won't go so long without posting again. I've been feeling classy lately, I hope you have too.

Love,

Loch.

even the classiest will fall ill.

That is a picture of the toaster oven I am about to make toast in. I just woke up about a half hour ago on a Friday. Why not at school, you may ask? Yesterday I was sick and basically felt like rolling over and dying, and this morning I vaguely remember grunting at my father that I wasn't getting out of bed so he should probably call my ride and tell her not to worry about taking me to class. Sleep has always been my cure-all, or my second best one next to NyQuil, so here I am feeling a hundred times better, and what am I to do with all of this free time after roughly fifteen hours of napping? Obviously, write.

I started writing something I don't plan on finishing or publishing anytime in the near future. It's not what will come out by the end of my sophomore year, that's for positive. It's going to go slowly and it's going to be really tedious, but I feel like I need to get it down on paper. More on that later.

Character development is still going. I think that's what I tend to have the most trouble with. I'm not the most creative person in the world, and all of my characters tend to be based on people I know in one way or another, whether or not I mean them to be, which is something I'm trying to break away from. This particular story is probably going to be all in third person, because I don't think its going to have one specific main character. Probably more like six or seven, so I need to be able to hop between points of view more easily, and having one narrator just feels like the most logical solution. I'm not very good at first person, to be honest- I always sound like the same person, no matter who I'm trying to be. I think maybe I'm going to take some acting classes in college, to help with that, because that's really all first person is. You just have to be a good actor, only in text instead of on screen/stage. Hopefully that'll help- first person can sound really immature if it's badly done, but if its executed well it can sound really good and it's something I'd eventually like to try.

I think I'm going to go make myself noms and type for a while. The house is quiet, which isn't exactly common, so I'm basically going to revel in the silence while I can. Noise is overrated. I hope none of you catch what I have/had.

dear interweb, get classy, plz.

love,

loch.