whatever i wanna do!

Last night I had this really intense moment where I realized exactly what I want to spend my time doing and who I want to spend it with. I will give you a hint, it involves writing.
This weekend involved whisky, apples to apples, skinny dipping and catch phrase, most definitely not in that order, and it was a really beautiful way to turn nineteen. I'm obsessed with my friends :) I'm sorry I don't really have anything to say! But check out my new fly kicks -

"At the present moment, I'm not recording, I'm not on tour and I've never had a song go to number one on BeatPort, I've never been featured on Juno Download or TrackitDown, I've never released vinyl, but what I do know is that I've been listening to electronica for many years and I have every right to speak my mind against the fabricated music that is being released on a daily basis, it's absolutely appalling. All these people think that if your on the BeatPort top ten that you're making something out of yourself, well you're making a mockery out of electronic music, I'm a producer and I come from the underground and I'm, quite frankly I'm sick and tired! And I'm here to go on these rants on message boards because I know I will never amount to anything and I need to make myself feel better so when I'm not high on cocaine, I will sit in front of this computer till the cows come home and continue ranting and raving about artists that are actually living out their dream because I never will!"
Deadmau5 is badass.

Love,
Loch.

I ain't went this hard since...

There is no amount of money that would make me give up what my manager likes to refer to as my "narcissistic blog," if only because I would like to imagine that sometimes people actually read it and when I get into moods like the one I'm in and I wonder if all the fun I'm having might be my downfall eventually, it's nice to pretend I have someone to talk to.

Chapter three will be done ridiculously soon. I know I've said that like ten times but you have no idea how close I am.
I need a lot more gin in my life, it does great things for me. I want that bookshelf for my apartment.
Love,
Loch.

my excuse is that I'm young

I would like to say that jealous bitches are the least attractive thing I can think of, especially when they're 20 years older. I would also like to say that there is no better feeling in the world than satisfaction.

I am not going to spend my life in the break room eating pre packaged lunches and talking enthusiastically about feta cheese and weight watchers and my bitch of a mother-in-law. I refuse. There is no reason why a person shouldn't be able to find a way to be fabulous, and I can't understand those who are content to simply accept the cards they've been dealt. The only way to find real success is to shuffle the goddamn deck, and you cannot do that if you watch slowly while your husband gains 150 lbs as you age and continue to bring him fresh turkey sandwiches upon his beck and call.
Last night I went to a park I haven't been to since last summer and tried to remember what I felt like then, and I realized it doesn't matter anymore because regardless of how I feel, I'm better. It is finally dawning on me that I am not the same girl I was a year ago.
<3,
Loch.

p.s. the people who love you the most aren't always the people you expect.

words that I made up

I think the best part of my intenrship is getting to drive there. It's like, a twenty minute drive in a part of Plano I never really went into before, and I found parts of Plano I'd literally never known about. I think for all the money West Plano has, East Plano is a million times prettier. Summertime is picking up :)

I cannot stop listening to Childish Gambino. Please love him like I do.
Love,
Loch.

heart inside your hand

I finished Wallflower and it was beautiful.

Currently listening to: Rolling in the Deep (Jamie XX Shuffle)- Adele

This blog post was pointless, :)
Loch.

awful blasted boring

I am reading the Perks of Being a Wallflower and I am beyond obsessed with it.

Boys, you are all exactly the same.
Love,
Loch.

Chapter three will be up in the next two days, or when i finish Wallflower, whichever happens first. I have a feeling it'll be when I finish the book.
again- http://www.fictionpress.com/~alexandraloch

a legitimate post will be up within the next 24 hours.

'scuse me, you're a hell of a guy

List of things to start doing

bring flask to work

actually use yoga kit

read books of a higher caliber

beat that one level of angry birds

finish chapter fucking three

develop self-control

eat less cici's 

<3

Loch.

boys, boys, boys,

You left your blood stain on the floor, you set your sights on him.

You left a handprint on the door, like all the boys before.

This is our luck baby, running out,

her clothes were never off, we still have our lives to run about,

To scale the mountain, to get us back on track,

like all the boys before, like all the boys before,

like all the boys before, like all the boys, boys, boys, boys,

In here the world won't bring us down,

our plan is golden, out there a lonely girl could drown,

in here we're frozen.

Where did the people go? My hands are empty,

You're not the answer, I should know,

like all the boys before, like all the boys before.

We're in a mess baby, we're in a mess babe.

Your more is less, babe.

We're under the sheets and you're killing me,

in our house made of paper, and your words all over me,

we're under the sheets and you're killing me,

I've seen you in a fight, you lost.

<3 Ellie Goulding

Peace out study time,

Loch.

my body glows

My freshman year of college will be over in less than 36 hours. 
I would like to preface this by saying that I am beyond obsessed with my friends. There is nothing in the world that makes me happier than looking through facebook pictures of us being dumb. I love everyone I've met here so so so much, <3 <3 :)

Also, I would like to say that people have flaws and everyone should get over it. We would all be much happier if we would just chill about the things that are wrong and start embracing the things that are right. :)


I LOVE YOU i'm sorry I was gone so long,
loch.

Atlantic

I hope all my days will be lit by your face,
I hope all the years will hold tight to our promise.

I don't wanna be old and sleep alone,
an empty house is not a home,
I don't wanna be old and sleep alone.

And if I need anything at all,
I need a place that's hidden in the deep,
where lonely angels sing you to sleep
though all the world is broken.
I need a place, where I can make my bed
a lover's lap, where I can lay my head.
Cause now the room is spinning,
The day's beginning.

<3 Keane